Again It's Another Year

I was clicking the files and tidying up all those scattered files in my laptop after being tortured with magazine stuffs for an entire year and I found a file which comprises all the pictures, documents and fliers that I have made for last year Post PMR Inter-Class Sales. Oh my God! Something then struck my grey cells and reminded that tomorrow is the 2nd Post PMR Inter-Class Sales! Gosh! Time advances and elapses too fast that it's gradually extracting my youth away from me. Time is so cruel that it grabs my teen life in Kuching High, the craziest yet unforgettable moments with my buddies and lots of fond memories, good and bad, time just snatched it away like a robber. Sigh.

I then ponder about what Miss Chai and Mdm. Ting related to me this morning. They complained that this year Form 3 students were all not even ready and nearly 50% of work is done although tomorrow is the sales already! Gosh. What had occured to the Form 3 students? I still reminsiced last year Miss Chai was missing in actions and my other friends and me have to take care the before, ongoing and after process of the entire function. When questioned them if they need woods to set up their tent, they were so carefree that they thought it is unnecessary to get the bako woods.

I felt like giving them smacks!

What the Choc! You do not know you need the bako woods and yet you all still express your carefree like? Gosh. My Godness. When you realise that, you guys resoluted in hunting me down to abet you all so that your plan tomorrow will not be marred? I am surprised, more than astonished to hear that. Sigh.

The diary committee comes in too. Just some typing they grumbled the works are hill-high or too much. They wanted the previous year's softcopy so that they could just edit it. Wow. And most of the things which we typed diligently although with lots of grumble last year, they could not cope with it. Sigh. What would happen to next year when the demanding Loo elects her committee? Anyway, it'll be another "good" and "gorgeous" year for Loo. That's good. Her payback for treating all of us illy, that's the consequence. XD.

Whatever the setbacks and problems are, it signifys that one year has elapsed. Sigh.

Look at the bright side, at least within this year, I learnt a lot of things.

a) I can confirm my friends are loyal. They are all still with me although one year has elapsed. Time tries to put our friendship into challenges but our bond is just way too difficult to be marred. XD.

b) I learnt a lot of things. Academically, I gained more knowledge as this year the Science subjects were introduced into my life and thank goodness! Additional Math painted my life even fabulous! That's a good sign, ain't it? XD

c) I cant deny that I learn more about computer. I spent time browsing it and I learnt more skills which is good in a way. =)

d) Life experience was gained. Bizarre things like accepting my grandma's departure, being able to be independent and travelling with friends, accepting crueliy and facts and so on. They make me mature. XD.

One year past and I hope it's going to get better in time. Tomorrow I'm going to watch HSM 3. Cheers XD.

::LEON HA::

Emptiness

Life’s just go on as it is. Probably I pen this post just for the sack that the blog’s tummy wasn’t filled with palatable fares. I left it starving for 3 days again. Argh! Sooner or later I’ll be a bad blogger who does not care much for his blog. XD.

True barh. I felt so empty. Physically and mentally. I am starved now. I need to consume something, like snack? But snacks are fattening and gosh. I think I’ll just put that aside. Mental wise, I really come up with nil ideas these days. What had bumped into my life? Kinda feeling life’s black and white these days.

I knew I sensed the emptiness in me but what can I actually do? Yea. I go watch HSM 3.

Heh Felicia, good luck in your coming History Writing competition. Your team can sure emerge as the champion. XD. *keep fingers cross* and don’t get too stress over it lah. XD

Yea. I have a crash on her. Who’s ‘her’? Figure it out yourself. XD.

::LEON HA::

Update from a Patient Ward

Yea. I am offically declared as a patient. Yea. I suffered from a severe sore throat which started on Tuesday, developed gradually to the critical stage on Wednesday night when I nearly suffocated. I drank gallons of water (*exaggeration) yet it was to no avail. Probably the white blood cells were not adequate to kill the viruses or bacterias that infected me. Anyway, too much white blood cells ain't good news. So rather keep in inadequate rather than more than sufficient. You know the consequences. XD.

Doh. I missed school today and things extended to the worst stage was I missed my Math and Add Math lessons! And also my chance to hang out with my gang at the school cooperatives. I missed my friends!! Tan Yee smsed me immediately after school inquiring my absent. XD. He reported to me my Add Math score. Guess what, I improved and this time round, I scored 87!! (*doh.. i still expect a 90++. i am greedy, ain't I? XD) Whatever the outcome it was, I knew I smsed Tan Yee, again and the vibration of my cell phones was continual and gosh. I missed the sms-fanatic moments. XD.

Daw smsed me inquiring my absenty too. Wawa! I got bunch of true hearted friends!! XD. I knew I did not make the wrong choice to befriend with them! See?! Fabulous meets the high class! Yeayea! Leon da Fabulous!! XD. (*lala.. hallucinating again. =p) Daw told me my add math teacher, Mdm Ting was hunting down for me. Oopsey. Fine. I'll look for her tomorrow. At least one comforting news, Mdm Loo did not made the trouble to bump around the school to search for me to help her to do editing things for the magazine. Grrrrrrreat! XD.

Today I was compelled to rest at home. I got nothing to do, nobody to chat in the morning so I was too diligent that I went into troubles to look for English workbook and chose an essay topic. Yeap! I wrote one letter in less than an hour and tomorrow I am going to submit my script to Dr. Lau. Ish. Anyone who read my blog will be feeling similarly like this, "Gosh! You utilise your sick leave by producing an English essay?! Are you nuts or did the viruses launced attacks towards your nerve impulses until you are not able to think rationally?" Yea. I guessed I was a little up the wall for doing that to my one day break. Sigh. I guess Daw has to teach me how NOT to be a bookworm and more a DOTA-HOLIC. Yea. Daw's favourite and expert - playing DOTA. XD.

Gosh. I spent nearly half an hour pondering what occured throughout the day. Guess my grey cells and the enitre organs have to be placed back to the patient ward for Leon da Fabulous Patient (*even a fabulous fanatic when I am a patient. oh. i am really addicted to fabulous! gosh! someone rescue me!) Fine. Time for bed. My nurses parents are urging me. Till now. Toodles

P/s: Oh god! HSM 3 premiers tomorrow! I wanna see Ashley Tisdale!!!

::LEON HA::

[state your title here]

Suddenly, I demand for a break - I do not wish to see my results this time, guarantee plunges and nosedive a lot if compare to the previous three examinations and darn! I am gonna be pissed off soon by my parents. Rescue me someone! SOS!!! XD

I missed Keren out of a sudden. I missed her craps, her smiles and every single thing 'bout my evil sister. Feeling like hunting down the memories filled up by the chocoholic and her accompaniment while squeezing our grey cells tackling additional math and crapping bout koperasi. XD.

Yea. And my genuine sis. She's coming back in less than 1 month time. Yea. My talking partner that will lead me to talk non-stop until 1 am in the morning. I gotta get myself prepared for that new lifestyle. Adapting to it now, that's why I browse around the Net until 12 am everyday? XD.

My legs were so exhausted after standing the entire day packaging next year exercise books. Heh guys, the cover for our long books and exercise books look absolutely fabulous in blue, far better than the green-yellow colour this year. XD. I assure you that the examination pads have been further improved and they are great now. =)

Oh. So feeling very random this post.

Yea by the way, gimme a title. fill it yourself by dropping comments for me? Thanks =)

::LEON HA::

Of such a Life of a Child

Dedicated to Dawson, who gave me the inspiration to pen this during the midst of examination. XD

I saw him
burrying himself with literature
hauling grammars
and so as figures
alongside with algebras
and theorems of science.

He travelled along
and ran swiftly of a
sudden when
dark past hunts him down
and abandon him
in the midst of a
labyrinth.

He was lost and his
apathy towards institution has
ignited and so
off he went drifting
aimlessly
wondering with no sight.

He requested for
a hideout
when the statistics
flew back like
a vigorous stream
and he hallucinates
a mirage of heaven.

He desires to be in there
forever -
the impostor just
creep past like a meteor
plunging him
back harshly and violently
to the reality.

I see the appalling
the hazardous
and the dark
surrounding him
and took over
of such -
a wonderful naive planet
of yet another
vulnerable innocent child.

Life's like that?
Make a Difference, Start with You and Me! XD

::LEON HA::

I'm Back!!

Yea!! After starving my little adorable blog for days and weeks, I finally got my HUMAN right back!! *exaggerations applied XD*. Now I could finally online officially for exam is over although Monday I still need to sit for Science 1 and Civics but who cares? I don't even bother! Haha.

Exams had being harsh like the weather in dessert. I think I'd flunk in all the 3 pure science subjects. Aww. Sometimes I questioned myself did I make the wrong choice to enrol myself in the Pure Science stream. But even for Arts, it's the passageway to my coffin too as in that stream it requires lots of memories works which is totally not my cup of tea =).

Hence, choosing Maths and Add. Maths is the WISEEEEEEEEEST choice cos you will not have to carry out reading like science subjects and the other subjects which I loathe a lot and after all Maths is all about figures, algebras, statistics, trigonometry, geometrical planes and lala. All of them are terrific! Maths is simply wonderful or what should I bellow, FABULOUS!!!. Yea. Maths is indeed fabulous. After all, life's just a matter of fabulous or the other way round, so why not choose the pathway which is nicely pathed instead of bumping yourself into the rocky one? XD.

Now I do not even bother whoever or whatever setbacks I am encountering, I've made up my mind to further my education in Mathematics! That's final. Respect my choice. I choose my own path, I illustrate my own life and I am the author of my soul's journey. Respect my decision please!

And by the way, I saw red this morning cos somebody went against my principle. Whoever who just tried to go against my principle, I don't care! And mind I remind you, I simply am a fanatic of fame and fortune and power. So what? That's me =).

Lala. I'M BACK bloggie!!!! Enjoy Ashley Tisdale's 2009 brand new song - I'm Back! Yea! That's what I am trying to say, I'M BACK!!! XD

::LEON HA::

Ashley + Jolin + Wilber

Emotional Conflicts

After being told that we were having dinner at a nearby cafe, which the first matter flip through my mind is that, "Why that place? Nothing there that is my cup of tea. Nothing favourites me." Suddenly, I made no objections and neither do I rebel. I just nodded and followed.

Upon arrival, the rest of them ordered chicken rice etc. I was the exceptional one. I wondered around and finally I was strucked by the "wheel of misfortune". I ordered a RM 2.80 Kampua mee which is expensive, little and does not even taste scrumptious. Yet I did not rebel much but just reside to a corner and keep quiet.

I knew something was wrong. Very major and very wrong. How could an extrovert like me would not blabber non-stop if I come across something not fabulous at all. I knew it. Something was majorly incorrect and I was really encoutering an emotional conflict.

On the way back, my dad asked me if I want to visit my Malay neighbour. Coldly, I replied, "No. It's so late. People invited us to go in the morning."

Knowing that I am disappointed and down, my mum added, "Just now around 4-5 I still saw people rolling in."

Cool as cucumber, the answer from my lips went, "What time is it now? It's merely 8. No. I do not want to go. Just go back home and study. Further more, you guys pin pointed that due to the restricted culture, so we must not go visiting."

The whole atmosphere went silent and so solemn that it remained like dead wood until I reached home. I shutted the car's door quietly and walked in. I strolled slowly up, turned on the lappy and browsed around aimlessly until my mum asked me to prepare myself some supper.

I did not rebel neither do I make any response except a cool "ok..". I only obey the instructions. After cleaning and cooking, I began my so-called feast. I was thinking, what happened to me? Seriously, I am suffering from emotional conflict. I felt neither happy nor sad nor down. I just wish to be quiet and be a temporary introvert. You can't blame me for being an introvert tonight. Citing a saying, "There's always an introvert side of an extrovert."

Played Ashley Tisdale's song, watched my favourite cartoons and dramas and also flipping through reference books including Mathematics, I felt nothing excite me. Ohya. I sent short messages to Tan Yee but I did not expect a reply. Cause I knew if both of us start talking, there's no end. So I switched my cell phone off.

Next, I'll off my laptop. Seriously, this is kinda dragging out my mental and emotional soul. It murders if it is prolong. Well, guess I will tug myself in bed after 9.30 pm tonight.

Probably too many things had occurred today. Talk no much.

I dropped of my 'XD' icon and so as ommiting my 'haih' words from this post.

I removed all my emotions now. Rescue me!

::LEON HA::

Raya = Study?

I was soo glad that Hari Raya finally trespassed by. Whee~ It seemed like ages since the last Raya departed and the incoming one creep in as slow as a snail. Well. This year, I am so hoping that the Raya will creep slower than its usual pace. Why? The whole week of Raya break is simply equivalent to study week. Doh. Exam begins straight after the Raya break and mind I remind you, I don't know why the damn silly school purposely made us all turn up at school on Monday and released us from Tuesday till Sunday? Point - nil.

Gosh. I can't imagine that. Yesterday, I was hitting the thick Success Biology reference book for the enitre morning. Afternoon, my apathy towards Additional Maths finally occured. Argh! But my tuition teacher made me promised her that I will study extra diligent for the topics I missed. Great, more tuitions after exam. Haih. Night time headed for Physics tuition, as usual. Sigh. Good thing dad and mum brought themselves and me to Foot Master for Foot Massage! Whee =). That's soo nice of them. Thanks a bunch XD

Today the Muslims are celebrating Raya. Dad and Mum do not permit visiting as they reason that Grandma just passed away and "white stuffs" shouldn't crash with "red events". Got it? If you are a Chinese, you'll understand it. Great, it tarnishes my good opportunity to taste the rendangs, masak merah, curries and lots more. Yea. And for this cultural restriction, I got bailed into my own "prison". I've being like an ass revising the entire afternoon. In the morning, I fooled around with Photoshop and suddenly the electric cut off, thanks to my dad, doing something with those electric stuff *how many times do I need to repeat myself?!! these electric stuffs are all so duhhsss!!!*

Afternoon, I was straight away bailed into the prison. According to my schedule, I was supposed to complete revising History by today. Nope! It was to no avail. Why? My parents were mopping the entire house, cleaning these and those, vacumming here and there. Picture those sounds!!! It really stinks and are extremely irksome. How can you study history under those pathetic conditions?!!! Tell me!! And not to say Biology. Sheesh. Yea. The perfect afternoon was destroyed. Gosh =). I took up Science and for goodness sake, I did exercises in the reference book from Chapter 1 - 4 and there the apathy towards it goes again. XD. I threw it aside and taking up the thick reference book to read Chapter 7. Lights. Yea. Physics related again. Bored much!

*now you finally understand why I loathe science subjects so much?! they need memorising even though they are called 'science'. Ahem. Whoever invented science must be in hell right now for torturing the grey cells of the younger generations nowaways XD*

It was 5 when finally the Streamyx got back to business. Yea. And here am I. Browsing around the net and hitting freshies updates to my blog's tummies XD.

This Raya breaks plan - STUDY! *yeap. your only schedule besides eat, sleep and tuition*. Sympathise me lah.. Haha.

P/s: One thing I discovered today. Time elapsed too fast. It's exactly one year from last year PMR's first day. Wow. Time really flees through us without acknowledging us. Yea. One more year left us and SPM will be soon. Lala. That's what all parents will say or rather reprimand. Sigh.

Yeayea. I know, you all dont have to remind me anymore, I am heading back to my prison.

"Thanks a lot" for reminding me of the hell place.

I do not feel cheerful at all for these hols. Anyway, it's predicted =)

::LEON HA::